all of me

when i married you, i married all of you

what i didn't realize when i married you, was that i would see all of me.

and i do not like all of me.

i did not realize that all of me, would hate the part of you that affected the all of me.

i did not realize that i would pick at all of you,

instead of facing the all of me.

i did not realize that picking at all of you,

would destroy all of you, as well as all of me.

i did not realize it would make us crazy, unstable, ungentle, enemies

i did not realize it would make us unforgiving, unyielding, the worst of the best

i am done with picking at all of you.  cause it's not all of you i need to face.

it is all of me.




Lord, forgive me for pointing at others when I am anxious and afraid.  Teach me to set emotional boundaries, in which I reflect on myself - and myself only - when I am grumpy.  Forgive me for blaming others for my fear and insecurity.  In each circumstance, help me to take responsibility for myself- and myself only.  Give me the courage to reflect on myself, in order so that I can love my husband in all of who he is.  The battles I need to face are inward, not outward.  Guide me, God.  Be gentle, please.

In Jesus' name,
Amen