when i married you, i married all of you
what i didn't realize when i married you, was that i would see all of me.
and i do not like all of me.
i did not realize that all of me, would hate the part of you that affected the all of me.
i did not realize that i would pick at all of you,
instead of facing the all of me.
i did not realize that picking at all of you,
would destroy all of you, as well as all of me.
i did not realize it would make us crazy, unstable, ungentle, enemies
i did not realize it would make us unforgiving, unyielding, the worst of the best
i am done with picking at all of you. cause it's not all of you i need to face.
it is all of me.
Lord, forgive me for pointing at others when I am anxious and afraid. Teach me to set emotional boundaries, in which I reflect on myself - and myself only - when I am grumpy. Forgive me for blaming others for my fear and insecurity. In each circumstance, help me to take responsibility for myself- and myself only. Give me the courage to reflect on myself, in order so that I can love my husband in all of who he is. The battles I need to face are inward, not outward. Guide me, God. Be gentle, please.
In Jesus' name,
Amen
